i am the one who's lost, i am the one who's confused. i am the one who's guilty, the one who's nightmares haunt me. i am the one who's sorry,the one who hurt you. but i am the one who loves you, i realy fucking do.

i can put on a smile for the entire day but the pain in my heart never leaves.

From: ahtokky_tok@hotmail.com
To: alexpjd@msn.com
Subject: happpy anniversary!
Date: Wed, 26 Oct 2011 13:09:47 +0800


Baobao! Happy Anniversary! 3years 9 months! yeah muddafucka!
I know much has changed over the past years and it would probably continue to change. I haven't been the best girlfriend and I know I can be terribly hurtful, tactless and deceptive at times but I never mean to hurt you.
BUT DESPITE WHAT A TERRIBLE PERSON I CAN BE, YOU STILL LOVE ME SO MUCH. I JUST WANT TO LET YOU KNOW THAT NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS IN THE FUTURE, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY ONE TRUE LOVE. i am sorry you got such a neurotic crazy and stupid girlfriend but i love you my dearest dearest ahpoopeeeneelampinu (say it out).
happy anniversary!